Getting three kids ready and out the door to school is no easy task. Maybe if I were more like Victory, I would have all the clothes for the week laid out on Sunday and the lunches made the night before. Or if I were more like Marcy or Julia, I wouldn’t have this issue because I would be so creative, patient and whimsical that I would educate my children at home. Perhaps if I were more like Brenda, I would understand the mind and inner workings of a child so much that my words would be compelling and inspiring at all times. If I were more like Kathryn, none of this would even bother me as I would constantly display the perfect measure of patience and love rather than scream my head off and wonder who’s idea it was for me to have kids in the first place. But I’m not that kind of mom. And really, as wonderful as my friends are, I know they have their struggles too. I just wanted you to meet them.
Today, was difficult because one son had trouble getting his homework done on time. He waited and waited, making every excuse not to get it done. He had lost his focus. At the last-minute as he was scrambling to complete it, he grew increasingly angry and frustrated because the assignment was not turning out the way he had hoped. What followed was a full-blown fit of emotions and there was nothing I could do or say to calm him down.
He couldn’t hear me.
How often is it that I don’t do what I know I’m supposed to do. I lose focus. I mess around. Then I get angry. My emotions well up so much that I can’t hear the Spirit of God directing me. There is always a solution, always a lesson, God doesn’t waste anything. Yet sometimes, I am so caught up in how things are effecting me, my emotions rise up above the truth that wants to renew my mind.
When the volume is so loud in my heart, I can’t hear the whisper to my soul.
How I wish I could follow my own advice to take my time to quiet down so clarity can win the day. Clarity that comes from truth and the knowledge that I am safely loved. My Father knows what is best for me, but it is up to me to listen.
Are you finding it difficult to hear? How do you turn down the volume?